Sunday, 28 January 2018

Living With Mental Illness In The Family

It's a deep post today as I've been feeling nostalgic and have been listening to a lot of Linkin Park recently which has brought up a lot of emotions for me that never used to be associated with the band as much. They've always been one of my favourite bands as their music can be enjoyed no matter what mood you're in and they were a huge part of my childhood, helping me through some of the hardest times of my life. But ever since their lead singer Chester Bennington committed suicide last July, their music has become a hell of a lot more deep to me and has opened my eyes once again to just how dangerous depression really is. Even for someone who, to the outside world, had everything; a loving family, great friends, an amazing career, more money than he probably knew what to do with and was supposedly living the dream. As their song One More Light states 'Just 'cause you can't see it, doesn't mean it isn't there'.

This has been a difficult post to write, mainly because it isn't me myself that suffers from mental illness as such, but someone very close to me. I didn't want to make it an invasive and exposing post for her as I fully understand it's an incredibly personal thing to go through and it would be rude and unjust of me to talk about something that I am not experiencing. But the reason I wanted to write about it, is to share how it has affected me personally and to attempt to inspire people who suffer themselves or are living with family, friends or partners who suffer from mental illness to have faith that things will get better and you are loved. No matter how bad it gets, there will always be someone there for you; whether in person or online, you should never have to suffer alone. 
My family's story of mental illness began over 10 years ago when my ex-step father tore a huge hole in our lives. A man that was seemingly a good husband and a good step father, who to our dismay turned out to be the very opposite. I won't go into the gory details as it's very revealing, especially for my mum, and we have literally spent the last 10+ years trying to get over the damage he caused. What I will say is it was the worst thing that could have possibly happened to my family and life has never been quite the same since. It's crazy really when you think how much power we give people over our lives. To think a man that hasn't been involved in our lives for coming on 15 years now, still borderline controls us in our every day activities, yet has absolutely no idea and probably doesn't even remember us. It's ridiculous, but brutally real. 

A lot of bad stuff happened during the time my mum was married to this guy, most of which I have mentally blocked out to protect myself, but some that will forever scar my subconscious. As a young girl at the time, I didn't understand what was going on. I was oblivious to the damage that was being done and the impact it would have on me and my entire family later on in life. Fast forward to present time and it has become painfully obvious that not only have his past actions scarred my mum in ways nobody will ever be able to undo, but he has completely shattered my childhood, pushing me to have to grow up a lot sooner than most kids in order to take care of my mum and in turn has forced me to deal with feelings that I shouldn't have had to at a ripe age of 10. Myself and my mum have spent every day since then looking over our shoulder, hoping and praying that we'd never see him again, and trying to put life back together. And even now, that little thing called mental illness is hovering around and preventing us from truly moving on.

Now that I'm older and have a child of my own, I am able to look back on this experience and learn from it in so many ways. It's definitely left me with a lot of deep rooted issues that even now I'm working through - and as much as I hate admitting it as I never feel like I'm allowed to suffer since my mum was the person who took the brunt of it, I have struggled with depression and anxiety since, just not on the same level as her. However since I haven't ever voiced my feelings to my family, nobody has really ever noticed. Which is not anyone's fault, at all. I've always felt like it's too selfish to express my side of things when I've worked so hard to get on with my life as if he wasn't ever a part of it. But now that my son is in the world, I don't want to let the past control the present any longer which is why I'm letting this all out in one last hurrah before I move on. I want to create a positive and happy life for my baby boy where he doesn't have to go through such terrible events that will permanently damage him. As hard as it is to let go of those events that have controlled our life for so long, thanks to my partner and a lot of hours of talking things out, I now feel ready too and that's a huge thing for me. I can only hope the same thing will eventually happen for my mum.

So I guess the main thing I wanted to share whilst opening my soul up to people on the internet that don't know me or even care personally, is that no matter how helpless you may feel thanks to depression, anxiety, PTSD, whatever - as long as you are brave enough to tell someone about it, you are not alone. It can be the hardest thing you'll ever have to do, but it's worth it to have even just one person there for you - whether it's a friend, a family member, a stranger on the internet or a therapist. Keeping depression tucked away in the back of your mind is a dangerous game and far too many people have lost their lives thanks to it so I think it's imperative for anyone who suffers or knows someone who suffers, to speak out or be the shoulder that person needs to lean on and make a difference.


Wednesday, 24 January 2018

Marc Jacobs Beauty Matte Highliner VoxBox Review

Two weeks ago I was lucky enough to receive my second Influenster Voxbox and this time I was sent two of the new Marc Jacobs Beauty Matte Highliners in the shades 'Popular' and 'Pink Of Me'.  At first I was quite skeptical as I don't typically wear coloured eyeliner, let alone the colour pink on my eyelids much at all unless it's a very subtle shadow, but after giving these a go I can honestly say I'm now a pink fan and will be rocking it on a regular basis. I was meant to take pictures of the final look that I created with these but my lighting was so terrible all over my house that I raged and gave up. Don't judge me! :')

For those of you that don't know what Influenster is, it's an app for shoppers to test products for companies and write honest reviews in order to have a chance at receiving a free VoxBox of complimentary products from different brands to try out. You can browse through the website to be in the know of the hottest products from beauty, to homeware to pet products. It literally has everything. If you're a blogger or a youtuber, I would highly recommend signing up as the opportunities are endless and it's a great way to try out new products! The more you put into the app, the more you get back :)

Anyway, these eyeliners are so dreamy, I was very impressed. I've only ever used Marc Jacobs make up once before and that was their Velvet Noir mascara which I LOVED; so when I received these I really had no idea what to expect. I've bought eyeliners in the past that are scratchy and uncomfortable when you apply them and then they rub off over the course of a few hours so you're left with an awful smudgy mess on your lids...but these are nothing like that, I assure you. They are soft and creamy which make them super easy to use.

I applied the darker pink shade 'Popular' (which does look quite a bit darker in this picture than it actually is, damn my bad lighting, again) as I would normally do my black winged eyeliner and topped it with Urban Decay's glitter liner in the colour 'Junkshow'. I'm not gonna lie, the outcome was lovely - feminine and glittery, a pretty day look if you're into girly colours. Now I'm no make up pro as I'm sure you're aware of if you follow me on instagram, I'm average at best, but these eyeliners glided across my lids so smoothly that it made it look like I knew what I was doing! I then applied the lighter shade 'Pink Of Me' on my waterline which added a subtle touch to finish the look off. 

Not only do these highliners provide beautiful vibrant colour and easy application with their twist up action, but the product lasted all day without any smudging which I was pleasantly surprised about. It's completely waterproof and didn't even budge when I washed my face lightly, all I had to do to remove it was get my trusted miscellar water and give my face a good rub. This is such a bonus for me as I'm the type of girl that forgets I've put make up on and rubs my eyes, but even then it barely moved.

I'll definitely recreate the look and do a round two attempt at taking pictures for you guys to show the products realness on my pale complexion, but for now, you'll just have to take my word for it. These come in 25 beautiful shades at John Lewis for £20 each and the products design is so simple yet sophisticated. I will most likely be purchasing some other shades on my next pay day to have a play around so thank you Influenster for treating me, yet again, and introducing me to another product that I love.

Have you tried any of the Marc Jacobs Highliners? What did you think of them? Let me know! :) 

*I received these products complimentary from Influenster for testing purposes. All opinions are my own.

Monday, 22 January 2018

Things You Never Thought Would Happen To You Before You Had A Baby

As you would expect, becoming a parent changes your life drastically in so many ways; both good and questionably annoying...but it's also some of these little things that make the experience entertaining during those long days and make you realise just how lucky you are to be blessed with a tiny human. From normal everyday activities that have now been hijacked by your baby, to touching gross bodily fluids that you swore you'd never touch, here are some of the things that I never thought would happen to me before I had my son. Disclaimer: expect some grossness, some cuteness and some general activities that you can no longer enjoy alone...or at all really. :P


My biggest peeve about being a parent has got to be this one. I did get warned about it whilst I was pregnant but I never thought it would be to this extent, haha. Don't get me wrong, I love spending every minute of every day with my son, but when you've spent all day entertaining him and then you sit down to a nice cold plate of food and a stale cup of tea, it makes you want to cry. I just want a warm nutritious meal that hasn't been cooked in a microwave please.


Young babies don't know or care when you're ill. They are relentless. You could be full to the brim with a nasty sinus cold or bed bound with a fever and they'll still be demanding that you play with them. It's not their fault obviously, they just want their parents, but it sure as hell sucks when you're feeling rough and just want to wallow in bed with a hot water bottle.


Another thing I knew was coming but thought I could manage. I used to love love love my sleep and having a baby monumentally ruined that for me. Not only do I barely get any sleep these days because he's not in a routine where he sleeps for more than 4 or 5 hours at a time, sometimes even less - but when I do manage to sleep, I now find myself in a sort of mummy standby mode where I'm subconsciously listening out for him. So I haven't had a decent deep sleep in what feels like forever. It's gotta be the worst thing about being a parent, you just feel like a zombie 80% of the time!


This was something me and Dane promised never to do as whenever we watched people do it in public it made us cringe, but ironically, one of the first things Dane persuaded me to do when Cassius was born was sniff his bum so we didn't waste time changing his nappy every time he farted. I'm not proud of it but it's just one of those things...although I have refrained from doing it in public places, just because. (This is in no way a dig at parents who do do this in public, it's just our personal cringe meter, do what you gotta do!)


 Okay so I haven't experienced this yet, thank God, but twice now our baby boy has hilariously managed to throw up in Dane's mouth as he's playing with him. I can't imagine it's very enjoyable to have baby milk spat down your throat but it's bloody funny to watch from an outsiders perspective! ;)


 This is becoming an issue for us at the moment, in a good way. He's so damn cute, especially in the mornings when his little face lights up as he sees us and he babbles as he reaches out to us, that we sometimes struggle not to squish the life out of him. Not sure if this is just an us thing or if it's a normal thing for parents but gosh, we did create a cute AF little human and the love we have for him is ridiculous.


Everything became a lot more real the morning Cassius was born. We realised we can't be as reckless and YOLO as we used too, can't get white girl wasted on nights out anymore, can't just pick up and go away whenever we feel like it. Life feels a lot more precious now that we have a baby to raise and we're both a lot more aware of our humanity (as in we don't put ourselves in situations where we could get hurt now for example) as we'd hate for Cass to not have one of us in his life. 

Although some of these things seem more negative than positive, it's all part of the ride and if you didn't go through them as a parent then it wouldn't be worth it. Who doesn't want to be able to tell a funny story at a family party about how your kid projectile vomited into your mouth? 😂

What things have happened to you since becoming a parent that you never thought ever would? Feel free to share in the comments, I'd love to read. 


Friday, 19 January 2018

An Interview With My Boyfriend

'The Boyfriend Tag' is something that I've seen floating about all over the blogging and youtube world for years now and having a partner that is literally o f f t h e g r i d when it comes to anything social media, I thought it would be fun to change it up a little and give you guys an insight into his very hermit style life. And of course to prove he is actually real to those who don't know us personally as he is relentlessly against me taking pictures of him so I only have a handful of old drunken pics of us that even proves he exists, how romantic, eh? ;) You'd think after almost 5 years together he'd be more open to couple pics but never mind, I'm not mad... :P

Instead of doing the typical tag questions where I trivia him on facts about our relationship, we decided to do a more traditional style interview on himself, as let's be honest, he's way more interesting than I am and has lived a much more exciting life so far! So without further ado, if you're here for a nose or just fancy a little giggle, do read on.

What is your full name? 
Dane Paul Johnson.

Where were you born? 
St Helier Hospital Carshalton but was raised in Croydon/Wallington.

What is one of your earliest childhood memories?
At playschool, as many mornings as I can remember, I would waltz into the room and before my day started I would grab my favourite acrylic dinosaur (Ankylosaurus) and would go over to the desk with my friend and we'd sit down opposite each other and eat PVA glue whilst staring each other down. Just cos we could.

What is your favourite book?
Though it's a series it would have to be the Edge Chronicles books. I've always been a huge fan of the ol' swords and sorcery, high fantasy, nitty and gritty type books - these ones had such a great sense of adventure - they were innocent, and at times had early adulthood properties alongside the raw realities of the real world. You could never get too attached to a character because tragedy may be around the corner and yet it was just another world in itself, adventure lurking out there waiting to be explored! 

Who is your favourite musician/band? 
Without a shadow of a doubt at this moment in time, and for the past few years, The Neighbourhood. I cant think of a mood that I can be in that I don't fancy giving them a listen, they cover all aspects while retaining their originality. Just pure quality. They definitely deserve more recognition. 

What is one thing you couldn't live without?
Gaming. I am a huge nerd, like, of epic proportions. I don't ever try to hide it, it's made me who I am and in so many ways has affected my personality and shaped me. But I don't regret it at all, I feel like I guess its affected me in positive ways (aside from the nerd rage, gawd. My rage is monumental at times.) 

Where is the favourite place you've ever travelled too? 
Undisputed, would have to be Vancouver in Canada. The people, the culture, everything. As far as I know, I don't believe there is a closer place to paradise in this world. Life goals.

What's the craziest thing you've ever done? 
Ahh dude, a lot of things. If we're talking strictly non-judgmental, it would have to be one of my experiences with ecstasy. Each experience varied but one time, in a club, I just grabbed this pill and swallowed it blindly. (I expect anyone reading this will be like "What a silly thing to do", well, indeedy, it was. I don't do drugs anymore, have been clean for years; this was during my teenage years in Australia, we were all young once!) I remember there I was on the middle of the 'D-floor' throwing shapes like a boss until suddenly it hit me, from the feet all the way up the spine to my brain, you feel it - it's a chemical reaction, like goosebumps all the way through your body; it lasts roughly 5-10 seconds. It was like musical statues only the music was still pumping and everyone else was dancing except me. Dude it was like someone had just poured half a tonne of concrete onto my feet and chucked an elephant on the back of my neck for good measure. I was staring at the floor, unable to move and just like... I can't even explain it, maybe catatonic. It was the most peculiar feeling, I was still there, but not, maybe just not mentally. From there I realized something was very wrong. Everything just went slow-mo, I could feel my tongue muscles swallowing saliva in the slowest way possible, although everything around me was still going so fast, it was like being in a parallel universe. Naturally after beginning to panic I think where is my brother, he'll be out in the smokers area, so off I go to find Max Johnson; moving like a crab so not to fall off the face of the earth. I finally rendezvous with Max - now this is how I know it's bad - me and Max have done a lot of drugs together in our time in Oz, yet in this situation he did something that he's never done before and his face dropped when he saw me and he goes 'Oh Dane.'  He promptly took me to the bar and gave me water, telling me just to focus on him and not anything around me and I realized boy I was pinging. It was like telling Jesus not to preach. Not a thing slipped by my eyes in that room. He then escorted me to side of the dance floor where there were seats and he kept an eye on me as he continued with his night. Before long, a girl that was just as off her chops as I was found herself seated beside me. Now I don't know what brought her to this as I was trying to ignore her and collect myself, but she then sat there and proceeded to lick my face like a loving dog would do to their owner. I was speechless. Not because of shock, because of the pill. Anyway to conclude the story - I made it home safely, one of my friends drove an hour and a half to pick me up bless him, I dreamed lucidly that night of being a mushroom with legs wearing little red booties, riding up and down an dream ever. Moral of the story though kids, don't do drugs.

What is the proudest moment of your life?

29th June 2017 9:40, the birth of our baby Cass.
It's hard to put into words, the feeling of watching your son come into this was an overwhelming sensation of emotions, but mostly pride. I shared a hug with my mum and we both had a little tear up as our family tree sprouted a new branch. 

What is your dream job? 

If it's not being one of those ultra-nerds waffling away in history documentaries (ancient history), it would have to be talking extensively at a museum. I love that shit.

If you could be any animal, what would you be?

A mountain goat. I think in life they find themselves in really peculiar and obscure situations. I don't just mean metaphorically, I mean literally. But if we're talking about me, it would probably be metaphorically. They are just surreal and simple and happy go lucky...and awesome. 

What is your biggest fear?

Oompa f**king loompas. Without a shadow of a doubt. When I first watched the original Willy Wonka & The Chocolate Factory, being deaf at the time, all of these kids go into this factory and do stupid stuff that gets them taken away by the oompa loompas (never to be seen again) who have no facial expressions, are weird looking and are basically psychopaths. The whole movie just seems like a slaughter factory to a little deaf boy that didn't understand what was happening. Ughhhhhhh. Nope.

What is your biggest regret?
As I mentioned earlier, I am huge gaming nerd and I remember when I was young my mum took me to visit my nan in the hospital who was dying from cancer, but I had literally just received a copy of Dynasty Warriors 2 or 3 - which is now one of my all time favourite game series to play - and being a young kid, I was way more interested in reading the manual and getting home to play it than going in to see my nan. Little did I know, that would be one of her last days and I didn't get the chance to say goodbye. I know I was young and didn't think any better at the time, but it hurts every time I look back at it now.

Do you have any secret talents?
I am exceptionally good at dancing. Not to blow my own horn or anything, but I am an absolute prodigy on the D-floor. Dance battle me bro.

Name 3 famous people you'd like to meet, dead or alive.

DJ Khaled 
The dude is an embodiment of a meme and has that feel good vibe with a zest for life. If he doesn't make you laugh then you're dead inside.
Gordon Ramsay 

He single handedly inspired me to get in the kitchen and cook up some mean dishes and probably partially got me into masochism (because I'd love to be insulted by him). 
Childish Gambino (Donald Glover) 
I've not only always really loved his music, I thought he was quality in Community and Atlanta and he seems really down to earth and humble. I think there's more to him than everybody makes out so I'd love to pick his thoughts.

What's your #1 place in the world that you want to visit?

Japan, for historical and tourist reasons. I'm in love with the culture, everything seems to make so much sense there. There's so much depth and traditions that are super intriguing and they haven't forgotten their heritage which is admirable. Me and Jess are definitely planning on backpacking there when we've saved enough money.

Most memorable piece of advice you've ever received?

Don't dwell on the past.

Who was your role model growing up?
Zhao Yun from the Three Kingdoms time period, just because as a person he always had these values and no matter the circumstances, he always stood by them. During the most warring and chaotic time of almost any historical time period arguably, he was incredibly honourable and brave, never standing down from a fight. He taught me a lot of lessons as I was growing up, I even have him tattooed on my arm.

If you had to live in a fictional world from literature, which world would you choose?
Discworld from the Terry Pratchett novels. 
The world is almost as absurd as our own. RIP Terry.

If you could live in any era, what would it be and why?
The Ancient Roman era because it was quite a free style of living, providing you weren't a slave. If you were born in the right social standing, you got to do whatever you wanted - it was a very hedonist society.
But in a more traditional sense, the Sengoku period of Japan, despite the internal conflict. There's just something about it. I read the book Shogun and it was so fascinating, it has a certain magic to it; an untouched culture by any other influences than their own. I would have to be a samurai though, wouldn't fancy getting my head cut off for incorrectly plucking a chicken or something!

Most influential movie you've ever watched?
300. Not so much for deep reasons, more so that it inspired me to work my ass off in the gym to get tanky. Not that you'd know anymore as having a newborn baby taking over my life has truly fudged my routine...but I'll get back to it, don't you worry.

Favourite thing about your girlfriend? ;)
Her bum! Haha, just kidding - or am I? She's really cute and funny and manages to surprise me even after 4 and a half years together which I find really adorable.


Tuesday, 16 January 2018

The Blogger Recognition Award

Wow, so 2018 has been great for my little blog so far - 2 nominations for blogging rewards and it's only the 16th January, I'm feeling very blessed! I honestly never expected to get any recognition from other bloggers, let alone have as many people keeping up with me as there are but I'm so overjoyed that you guys are enjoying my posts. I'm no pro, my life isn't as glamorous as a lot of other bloggers and I'm not the best at photography, but to know that you wonderful people of the internet are acknowledging the hard work that it takes to maintain a blog, no matter how big or small, is heartwarming and I'm super grateful. The blogging community has been exceptionally kind to me and despite only having this little space on the internet for just over 6 months, I'm positive this year is going to bring great things so watch this space! ✯

I want to express how thankful I am to Lena over at for nominating me for this, we've only just discovered one another but I absolutely love her blog; from lifestyle to beauty to recipes, she has something for everyone and I'm excited to support her throughout her blogging journey as she has done mine in such a short time. So thank you, Lena. You're an absolute sweetheart. ♡ 

What is the Blogger Recognition Award?
The Blogger Recognition Award is an award given to bloggers by other bloggers for all their love and hard work they put into their blogs. It motivates bloggers and helps them to connect to many new readers as well as provides valuable advice from others. The recipient must then share their blogging background and two pieces of advice for those starting to blog, and nominates other bloggers. It is the most awarded in the blogging industry and is a community effort that is fantastic to participate and encourage others to take part in, although if you chose not to, that's totally fine too! :)
What is my blog about and why did I start writing?
My blog is a personal lifestyle blog that focuses on everything from beauty, books and disney to motherhood and advice I have learnt from and want to share. I started writing whilst I was pregnant as a way to keep me sane during those challenging months of my last trimester. I've always enjoyed writing and found myself in a position where I had a lot of spare time on my hands and a lot of creativity floating around in my mind so I went out on a whim and created my first blog, not expecting anyone to ever come across it, let alone enjoy it, but here we are!

Advice for new bloggers
Don't be afraid to be yourself
So many blogs are the same these days; featuring the same beauty products and the same  flatlays and the same reviews (just worded slightly differently) and it can be hard not to fall into that hole of doing what other people are doing because it's working for them. The best piece of advice I've ever received is as cliche as be yourself. Write about what you are passionate about, period. Whether it's along the same lines as other bloggers or something completely random and mostly unknown to others, go for it. Don't be afraid of what other people will think of your uniqueness. It's your blog and at the end of the day, as much as you want other people to enjoy it, your blog is yours and you need to love it more than anyone else.
Connect with other bloggers on social media
Honestly, the blogging community is so unbelievably helpful and welcoming if you put the effort in on sites like twitter, instagram and pinterest. Finding other bloggers to connect with is a great way to not only make new friends but help one another by sharing inspiration and giving credit where credit is due. Twitter has an incredible community of people who support and offer advice to bloggers and it's definitely worth investing some of your time into making these connections to get yourself noticed and help like-minded people on their blogging journey too.
My nominees in no particular order
Veronika at Czech Honey
Katie at Life With Ktkinnes
Heather at Highland Beauty
Elie at Elie Stories
Becca at Becx Blogs
Steph at The Little Cup Of Kindness
Em Jane at Out Of Tea Bags
Hels at The Hels Project
Rachael at Pale Girl Rambling
Megan at Beauty & The Blouse
Here are the rules for the nominees
  • Write a post to show your award
  • Thank the blogger who nominated you and leave a link to their blog in your post
  • Give your readers a brief history about this award
  • Give a brief story of how and why you started blogging
  • Give two pieces of advice you would give to brand new bloggers
  • Select 10 other amazing bloggers you want to give this award to
  • Lastly, comment on each blog letting them know you have nominated them and giving the link to the post you have created
Thanks again to Lena and congratulations to everyone who has been nominated, I can't wait to read everyone's posts! 


Monday, 15 January 2018

Top 5 Beauty Products of January

I've been meaning to do more beauty posts for so long now but since the weather has been terrible and I've barely been wearing make up lately, I haven't had the motivation to do some. But alas! I've decided to get out of my rut and put effort in with my skincare and make up routine even if I'm not leaving the house. Being a stay at home mum has made me so lazy when it comes to my appearance, I won't lie. As long as my baby looks good, it doesn't matter if I haven't applied make up or done anything fancy with my hair or even gotten out of my pjs some's a habit I'm eager to break. I used to love experimenting with make up and skincare products to see what worked well for me and now that it's been 6 months since I had my son, I don't really have any excuses as to why I'm neglecting myself so much. 

So I thought I'd do my top 5 beauty products that I've been loving throughout January - the cheap and cheerful edition. I'll do a high end brand version at the end of the month :) 

This has been my go to moisturising cream for months now. I use it every morning and every evening and it keeps my skin feeling fresh and hydrated all day. It's so lightweight so you can barely feel it on your skin but it's made such a huge difference since I've been using it, I'll swear by this over most other moisturisers. I have quite dry and sensitive skin and this ensures it's looking radiant at all times.

I received this palette in a Glossybox last year and since I've already used a fair few of Makeup Revolution's products, I had a pretty good idea that it was going to perform and it has. This brand is definitely one of my absolute favourite affordable drug store brands. This palette has such beautiful vibrant colours that when applied are lovely and sparkly and are very pigmented. Being as pale as I am, I don't usually wear too many crazy colours on my eyes but since receiving this, I've been trying out different looks and loving how they've turned out. I'm especially loving the red and pink shades.

Ted Baker Mascara
I've been looking for the link for this as it was included in a gorgeous Ted Baker set I received for my birthday but I literally can't find it anywhere so sorry about that girls! I hadn't tried any products from Ted Baker before getting this set from my mother in law but it's done nothing but blow my expectations out of the water. Everything is so stunning and goes on beautifully. It doesn't clump, it makes my lashes look ridiculously long and lasts all day without smudging, even if you accidentally wipe your eyes like I do sometimes. This mascara has very quickly joined the ranks of my all time favourite mascaras alongside the Too Faced Better Than Sex. 

Dane got me this for my birthday last year and it has always been in my make up routine since. This is my second pot and I looove it. It's a little small but is perfect to put in your handbag and touch up your cheeks for a rosy blush throughout the day. It's shimmery and feminine and smells lovely so what's not to love? 

Ever since they released this festive scent I've been obsessed and have literally bought everything from the range. Not even kidding. It smells divine and is gentle on the skin, leaving it feeling soft and supple after a relaxing bath. Alongside the body butter, this has been one of my top products for pampering myself after a long day. 

There we have it. I'm definitely not a make up or skincare guru, but I'm slowly and surely learning more about what compliments my skin so as I learn, I'll continue to share my thoughts on my favourite products with you guys. Let me know if you have any recommendations!


Sunday, 7 January 2018

The Sunshine Blogger Award

So I woke up this morning with a notification that I'd been nominated for the Sunshine Blogger Award and despite knowing nothing about this award until today, I'm feeling very blessed to be nominated as I didn't even really think anyone cared about my little space on the internet, let alone liked it enough to put my name forward, so I can't thank Hilary enough for such a kind gesture ♡ It's a lovely way to start 2018 and has definitely given me that confidence boost to put more work into my tiny little blog. Go and check out Hilary's work at, her blog is inspirational and you won't regret giving it a read! :)

For those of you who don't know much about the Sunshine Blogger Award like myself, the award is given to a blogger that is inspirational through their positivity and creativity in the blogging community.


  1. Thank blogger(s) who nominated you in the blog post and link back to their blog.
  2. Answer the 11 questions the blogger asked you.
  3. Nominate 11 new blogs to receive the award and write them 11 new questions.
  4. List the rules and display the Sunshine Blogger Award logo in your post and/or on your blog.
My answers to Hilary's Questions

Why did you start blogging?
I've always loved writing and found myself bored and quite lonely throughout my pregnancy so I wanted to create a place that I could put my thoughts down and generally rant about things that I love. Plus, it's a great way to de-stress when life gets a little bit hard. 

What is your favourite thing to blog about?
It's gonna sound super cheesy but definitely my son, Cassius. It's just so easy to go on and on about him and I feel that having a blog with updates about his life will be lovely for him to look back on when he's older. If boys care about that kinda thing, I don't know but hey :P

How long have you been blogging?
I started my blog up in June 2017.

What do you do in your spare time?
I'd love to be interesting here and say I have an amazing life where I do awesome things on a daily basis but that would be a life is so mundane, you would not believe :P 
My spare time consists of reading, watching tv shows and hanging out with my dog, Nobu.

Do you ever want to get married and have kids?
Well I've already got the kids part down! I'm not planning on having more any time soon and if I'm honest, marriage has never really fazed me. Me and Dane have been together 5 years in June so it already feels like we're married at this point, haha. But sure, maybe some day. If he ever gathers the balls to ask me ;)

What is your favourite kind of coffee or tea?
I'm not a huge coffee person, I tend to drink Mocha which is cheating really as it's basically hot chocolate with a tiny bit of coffee :') I live for standard English tea though. 

Where do you see yourself in ten years?
Ooh, hopefully living somewhere with more opportunities than my home town, with a great job and surrounded by people that inspire me and make me better. I'd love to move to another country like Canada or something but I don't know how realistic that is to be honest!

What is your 2018 goal?
To be better at taking care of myself. Physically and mentally. I'm notoriously good at putting myself down, always have been, and this year I want to stop holding onto my past mistakes and create a life I can be proud of.

Where are you from?
I never really know how to answer this as I've moved around a fair bit throughout my childhood but I guess Faversham in Kent would be the obvious answer as that's where I've lived for the past 13 years. 

What job do you have currently and what is your dream job?
I'm not employed currently as I had my baby in June and left my job before then due to family stuff; although I'm still doing dog sitting occasionally which is more a paid hobby than a job.  My dream job, oh my god, I don't always changes. I want to work at an animal sanctuary in China, be an author, work at Disney and more.

I noticed Hilary only posted 10 questions to answer so there we have it! I wish I could nominate all the bloggers that I've come to love reading up on but alas, the limit is 11 so here are my choices :)

My nominees in no particular order:

My Questions for you all:
  1. What do you love most about your blog?
  2. If you could describe yourself in three words, what would they be?
  3. What bloggers/youtubers inspire you the most?
  4. What platform of social media has helped your blog grow the most?
  5. What is your favourite book?
  6. Would you rather give up skincare or make up?
  7. Where is your favourite place to travel too?
  8. If you could change one thing about your life, what would it be?
  9. What is your spirit animal?
  10. You have the chance to be any tv character of your choice, who do you choose?
  11. What do you hope to accomplish in 2018?
Big thanks again to Hilary over at for nominating me and I can't wait to read everyone's responses! Good luck all 


Wednesday, 3 January 2018

Happy New Year ☆ 2018 Goals & Resolutions

And just like that, another year has passed. I can't believe how quickly 2017 went! I feel like Christmas and New Year flew by, don't you? I would say 'New Year, New Me' as so many of us do at the beginning of a fresh year, but this year I think I'm quite happy with myself in general so instead of trying to change myself, I'm going to focus on continuing the way I am with a few added nudges to improve my overall health and lifestyle instead of the person I am. If that makes sense...So here are my current goals and resolutions for 2018.

I've never been good at remembering to drink water throughout the day, it's always been my downfall; I pretty much just live off tea and then wonder why I get headaches a lot and generally just feel a bit rubbish. So this is my #1 resolution as I want to get my body into better shape and keep my mental state as positive as it can be! It'll also be so good for my skin as I'm quite bad at keeping up with a skin care regime.

I am such a chocoholic, it's actually quite disturbing. Honestly I could eat it all day, every day - don't judge me. I ate so much over the Christmas period that for the first time in my life I actually think I'm over it and need a detox. I'm not saying I'm going to completely cut it out of my diet as that would be crazy - I mean a girl needs some comfort choccie when it's that time of the month you know - but I'm definitely going to limit it to only indulging when absolutely necessary.

Anyone who knows me will know that I'm basically always skint. My money gets spent so freaking quickly that I hardly ever get to really enjoy having it in the first place. I'm aware I'm quite indulgent in my monthly boxes so alongside the household bills, baby supplies and helping my mum out, there isn't much left over for enjoying ourselves. So this year I've cut out all subscription boxes besides Fairyloot, have cancelled all pointless direct debits that I've been meaning to do forever and am focusing on putting money aside whenever possible so we can take our son on his first little holiday this year in the summer.

We had been hoping to cross this one off at the end of 2017, but unfortunately things didn't quite work out so it's carrying onto 2018. Me, Dane and Cassius are crammed into one medium sized bedroom at my mum's house and it's not ideal. Especially now that Cass is 6+ months, he's going to need his own room real soon and we as a couple desperately want our own space too so I'm hoping to find the perfect place we can call home this year.

Lastly, this is something I've been putting off for years now. It's embarrassing in some ways as it seems that everybody drives these days; but I either haven't had the time, the money or the patience to commit and therefore am without my licence at 24 years old. I feel that now more than ever I want to push myself to do this as I don't want to be stuck using public transport with a baby forever, it's not fun. Also, I'd love to have the freedom to just pick up and go anywhere, whenever I feel like it and not constantly having to ask my family for lifts so watch out roads, I'm coming for ya.

So those are my goals for the New Year, although I'll probably end up adding more as the year goes by. What are yours? I'd love to hear them and be inspired :) Feel free to leave a comment and let me know!

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