Wednesday, 28 August 2019

Summer Update | My Return To Blogging!


Well hello, strangers! Guess who's back 👋
It feels so weird sitting down to write a blog post after 8 months off but I think I'm ready to throw myself back into writing now and it's about time I explained my sudden absence to those of you that have stuck around to keep up with my little corner of the internet  - thank you by the way, you're the best. 
So first things first, it's crazy how fast this year has gone. My last post was my 2019 goals back in January and as much as I'd love to say I've smashed them all, I am still working on most - but I have managed a couple which I'm proud of myself for as I didn't expect to tick off more than 1 if I'm being honest. So let's run through those first and then I'll fill you guys in on what's been going on in our lives over the summer and why I took a step back from blogging for a few months!



Get Cassius into a good nursery ✔️
You have no idea how happy I am to have secured a spot at the nursery I wanted for my boy. 
His cousins have both gone to this place and they have nothing but outstanding reviews so I'm 
SO excited for him to officially start next week for 2 days a week. Not gonna lie though, how 
 nerve-wracking is it when your toddler starts leaving the nest so to speak? I can't even handle 
my emotions right now. I hope he loves it. I hope he doesn't cry all day. I hope I don't cry all 
day. I hope he makes friends. I hope he settles in. Oh my gosh, I can't.

Find a part time job that I love ✔️

This one was actually kinda sprung upon me by a family member who works there and told 
me of the vacancy, but I can't complain as it's been great so far and fits around Cassius and 
my life looking after my mum with it being just 2 days a week. I'm a receptionist at a local
 beauty salon in my town and have been working there since April so yay for the universe
 (and Andrea) helping me out. :) Getting back to work and a break from the hectic lifestyle of 
being a stay-at-home mummy has done wonders for my mind and relationship with Cass as
he actually misses me now and doesn't just ignore me most of the time!

Take better care of myself - mentally and physically ✔️
I would say I've been doing better at this so far. I'm not perfect, I have had a few slips throughout the year and felt low, hence not returning to blogging sooner but all in all, I'm definitely in a better place than I was this time last year which to me is a win 💪 I'm putting on a little bit of weight which I've always struggled with so I'm happy, my anxiety is down to like 20% of what it used to be and I'm eating and exercising better so hooray.


With them out of the way, what else can I update you on?

Ooh. Cassius turned 2 in June. Yes, TWO. Can you believe it? Because I can't. His 18 month old post is literally only two posts behind this one, hah! Time flies and if you follow me on instagram (which I am also terrible at keeping up with, don't judge me guys I'm not a social media guru) then you'll know we took him out for a day at Howletts Zoo and had an amazing time with our family. Pretty sure this is the last year that I can get away with not swarming him with presents as he's too little to care just yet. I won't sugar coat it though, the terrible twos have definitely made an appearance and are ruining my life on a daily basis now which is just w o n d e r f u l. 😭



With turning two, came the need for us to give up our bedroom entirely to him as he now needs his own space as well as his own big boy bed; so me and my partner have now been forced to use the front room as our bedroom for the past 6 months which is not ideal at all. We're desperately hoping to move into a 2 bedroom house of our own ASAP, as we currently live with my mum who I care for, but we've had shit luck so far. It's been stressful as hell trying to sort out how to store our things around the house without constantly having to sneak into Cassius' room to get ready for work and I'm hoping the universe will give me some good luck soon and find us somewhere to live.  😇


Which then brings me to why I stopped blogging for the past 8 months...


Firstly, I've had no laptop. My laptop broke at the beginning of the year so I've been doing everything on my iPad and phone since then. I did try to blog on my iPad but it was too difficult to edit my posts, add pictures and links and all that jazz without messing it all up and losing my shit so I just decided to wait until I replaced my laptop. Which I still haven't done. I've just hijacked my mum's laptop instead, shh.


Then my mental health was all over the place during February - April and I couldn't keep everything together alongside caring for my family so I kinda just shut everything I didn't absolutely need in my life off. I stopped caring about my blog and instagram, I deleted my twitter and I just posted a couple of things here and there whenever I felt like it, not when I was expected too. Nothing in particular happened to me to cause this mini meltdown, I was just overwhelmed and tired of the pressures of the internet and not being good enough at this whole scene. I've since come to the realization that I don't care what people think of my blog as long as I'm happy with it and have decided to wholeheartedly throw myself back into writing as I've always loved it and have genuinely made some lovely friends through the bloggerverse that I don't want to throw away.


And that's it really. I thought this post was going to be a lot longer with more mindless rambling but thank god it's not, I don't want to bore you all to death 😋


So once again, thank you to those of you that stuck around despite my sudden hiatus, I really appreciate all the support and cannot wait to get back into the swing of things and start dishing out support back. Watch this space, mumma Jess is back. 💕



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  1. Hi mama! So happy you are back and are feeling better both mentally and physically. Sometimes you just need to take a break and do what's best for you and that is exactly what you did! There are moments when I have needed to take a step back and have a breather too. Excited to read more! Just subscribed :)

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  2. Wow, this post is so relatable! It is incredibly important for us to take care of ourselves... to set aside what we 'should' be doing to work on what we 'must' be doing. Congrats for focusing on YOU!

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  3. First off, Welcome back! I can relate to this post in so many ways. I don't have kids but sometimes life gets a little crazy and I have to put things in perspective, or spend some time on just me. I look forward to reading more of your blogs!

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